An Unscripted Comedy

Avoiding Study

2010-07-31T14:05:00.001+10:00

I just found this on Word. Publishing a blog post ?

I'm unsure if it's going to work, but it didn't have tumblr as a blog option, so I had to resort back to here. I'm avoiding study something severe. I've written my English notes for all of my English essays. Safe to say that I'm screwed for them all, but it's okay... If I can just grasp Belonging I think it'll be okay. Short answer, just wing it on the day. Creative writing, I'm not changing and I just need to refresh my memory, I used to know it word for word so let's see if I can do that again. Essay, need to learn.

HSC sucks some serious dick.

Happenings as of late.

2010-06-21T21:18:00.004+10:00

Sup Blog,
Haven't written to you in a while.
Been feeling good lately :)
Holidays soon !

Talk soon.

interesting..

2010-06-06T14:40:00.002+10:00

So, I've officially become a tumblr addict

How many songs total: 4478

How many hours or days of music: 11.8 days

Sort by song title;
First song: A-Punk - Vampire Weekend
Last song: 80s Joint - Kelis

Sort by time;
Shortest song: Happy Birthday - Frank Sinatra
Longest song: Teresa and Thomas - Bright Eyes

Sort by album;
First album: Absolution - Muse
Last album: 5 Songs - The Decemberists

Top five most played songs:

* 1. Andria - La Dispute
* 2. Blindfolded - The Classic Crime
* 3. I'm Not Your Boyfriend Baby - 3OH!3
* 4. Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again - La Dispute
* 5. Pink Bullets - The Shins

First song that comes up on shuffle: This Temporary Life - Death Cab for Cutie
Search the following & state how many songs come up:

Death - 71
Life - 81
Love - 248
Hate - 23
You - 614
Sex - 18

What to do?

2010-06-05T15:06:00.002+10:00

See, I've just made a tumblr account. Unsure if I want to ues it though.
I can start again.
Fresh :)
Buttt, I'm kind of attatched to this blog and it's pointlessness.
Maybe I'll stick to both. And see which one I prefer..
It seems that more people use Tumblr. Perhaps I'd actually get some followers? If I posted interesting..things of course..
?

Careers

2010-06-04T19:35:00.003+10:00

Today was actually a rather lovely day. Scored a ton of shit free stuff and a billion books for Unis I don't even want to go to...but it shall all be helpful in choosing what I actually want to do next year.
Highlights of the day would definitely have to be the escalator - and clippy's reaction. One of the most hilarious things I've ever seen. Patty almost stealing that English book, man..freaking lol. And of course being the most..bogan..but epic grade in the food hall place. Throwing around tampons...and the one that got stuck on the ledgeeee, dudee. Almost wet myself with all that laughter today :)
Made up for it this arvo, after meeting with the Gma at the square, having coffee...shopping...then coming home, inspecting my days gatherings, and gracefully and literally crashing on the lounge, only to be woken up at dinner time. Sitting next to my grandma, I had to turn away. I couldn't watch her eat. It made me feel nauseous. She literally did not stop talking while she was eating, so it was just. Disgusting.
So I've now showered and no longer feel like vomming, and shall spend the rest of the night doing absolutely jack shit. Skins? A film? Vampire Diaries?
Sounds like a plan jan.
And there is a run down of my Friday the 4th of June 2010 :)

i would like to say that,

2010-06-02T20:57:00.002+10:00

I can't stand to be around you.
I envy you.
Your voice makes me want to slowly gouge my eyes out with a fork wrapped in barbed wire.
You're so pathetic.
I can't imagine my life without you.
I wish it was different for you.
You're such a fuckwit.
I'm sorry.
I need you.
Everyone would be better off without you.
I'm trying to change.
I know I have issues.
I wish I was different for you.
There's just some things I wish you didn't do.
And some things I wish you didn't say.
I hate you.
I love you.

2010-05-30T23:14:00.003+10:00

I love this scene. I don't know why, but it's just..it's so sad. Especially when he starts crying. Kind of rips a hole in your insides. I would have embedded it...but, disabled.

we are the sultans of swing

2010-05-28T00:07:00.005+10:00

So I just spent the past two hours rewriting..and editing..and rewriting..and editing my English essay, in the hopeless attempt to memorise it for tomorrow's assessment. I have a few random sentences down pat but the rest - pfffft, fuck it :)
I tried to rewrite it for the billion and one-th time..but, my brain just gave up on my. It is literally fried..even though I've done nothing but this all week. I'm so tired..and just..dead. Really wanting this weekend. Or the holidays even. Or next holidays. Or anything post November 5th really. That'd be splendid.
When I first began English work this evening, my brother was playing guitar hero downstairs, so ever since then I've had Sultans of Swing in my head playing over..and over..again. I don't mind, since it's an epic song, but when you're trying to talk about Hamlet's sick Oedipal desires you don't particularly want the Dire Straits cruising along in your brain.
It's 12:12 now, I missed 11:11. Dang.
I'll try for some more interesting blog posts soon. With photos. And intriguing stories perhaps?
Here's hoping.

P.S. I really need to change the pictures to the left to the left, all the pictures in the boxes to the left..it keeps screaming at my BANDWIDTH EXCEEDED. I'll fix it, eventually.

Stress.

2010-05-20T21:17:00.002+10:00

Okay.
So I'm freaking out right now.
Trying to study for maths, and I can't even get the simplest Integration questions right. Wtf is wrong with me? I can't see what I've done wrong or anything..but I keep getting the questions wrong.
Prepared to fail tomorrow.
The test is worth 100%. The hand in bit is worth nothing. The bit I think I did actually decent on is worth nothing.
Breathe. I'm just....going to move on to another question.
I'm going to do a hard..er.....substitution question.
And I got it right.
I'm calm now.

I can't wait for this year to be over.

hmm,

2010-05-14T17:58:00.002+10:00

So today I came to the conclusion that I am an extremely jealous person. I always want what other people have, which is stuff that I never will have. I can never seem to be content with what I do have. Who knows why.

Anyway, I watched the season finale of The Vampire Diaries and had a large OHMYFUCKINGGOD discussion with ali, establishing that we are so knowledgeable in the show that we could write and direct the whole next season. Skillage.
Other than that..today was...productive, kinda. Double english - major drone. Double maths - a lot of work done. Chem - interesting looking at the pretty colours :) Free - I sat like a nigel, utilising the study booths for the first time ever in the hope of getting work done. Worked ! Did some questions from my ext. assessment and figured out questions I need to ask about. Go team. Our first after school Chemistry this arvo :) learnt a fair bit. Shall be good as it continues.
Buttt for now, it is No Cook Friday at our house, and I'm beginning to get rather hungry..so I'm going to go inquire as to where the food is at.
Have a lovely weekend :)

run with what you've got

2010-05-12T17:26:00.003+10:00

I really do think I am bi-polar. It's kinda pathetic though. Like..today. Apologies Jess. Not exactly sure why or for what reason but I just got annoyed, and then I got angry and then I started thinking about everything that I am angry about and then that just kept me angry and depressed.
Two hours later and I'm completely fine. I'm absolutely freezing and lying in bed but I'm fine.

My counter is at 4772. I laugh cause they were all probably people who flicked onto the page, read the fat bitch whining, groaned and closed the screen..hahaa
And I am still so hungry. Dinnertime - hurry the fuck up.

Right now I am obsessed with Dirt Room by Blue October.
It's so good. It seems like it's about him murdering someone....but y'know. It's sweet as.

Oh god then you awoke. You started screaming through the duct tape, don't ever think I'm letting you go. I'm busy digging you a hole, now you'll be living in a dirt room.

I finished tutoring about half an hour ago. Was a good sesh :) I think she's getting better. I went over a test she did and she barely made any mistakes. Was mad as.
She was telling me that Martin has grown a beard. And it's ranga. And everyone laughs at him :)
I laughed.

I like this new layout, but it looks very bland. So I've come to the conclusion - that I'm sure I have come to many times before - but we need to take more photos. Saturday night should be a photo op? Tuesday evening - should be interesting. But yeah, more photos photos photos !

going insane

2010-05-11T17:30:00.003+10:00

I'm having a seriously paranoid day.
Freaking out when I thought Patty had a gun..I don't even understand that. And this afternoon I was sitting in the park and the song I was listening to had an unexpected horse neigh in it. Little did I realise it was actually in the song..so I turned around looking for a horse, but saw a dark shadowy tree trunk and my mind immediately was like - DEMENTOR!!!!!
Five seconds later it was asking itself...what the fuck are you on?

someday,

2010-05-10T22:12:00.002+10:00

I've been so tired all day. It was a definite struggle to stay away in English..ugh. Just goes on..and on.. I don't give a shit about what critics think about Hamlet.
So I had a lazy afternoon, thinking I had no homework and just doing nothing. Was splendid :) Went for a drive - this short old guy in a hat had no idea what he was doing and then at a roundabout some douchebag in a van damn near cleared myself, dad and billy off the road. Thanks for that reflexes. Came back to remember to do that Bio prac. Finished it, then remembered that she probably won't even want them collected tomorrow seeing as we're doing another prac so I did it for nothing really. Sigh.
I'm going to go to bed soon, in the next 10 minutes anyway - a tired Alyssa isn't a happy Alyssa. And no one likes a grumpy Alyssa.

Double free + study hall tomorrow ! I shall get some of my ext. assessment done.
I'm gonna lose my equal 1st ranking with this assessment, can't fluke it twice lol I shall succumb to the maths nerds of my class :) I shall just do my best. As long as Physical Applications of Calculus isn't in it, I think I should be okay :)

I don't feel healthy. It's probably just the lack of sleep, but ugh. Not a good day.

narcotic

2010-05-09T23:30:00.004+10:00

Sup blog,
Haven't posted in a while. Not much has been happening to be completely honest. I spend $260 on clothes yesterday. I eventually had to come home though, my hand was killing me lol
Oh, Happy Mothers Day :) My mother got...an iPod, a mad ass gym ball and clothes. Totally stealing the gym ball for 'workouts'. I'll lose weight..eventually..ahem.
Positivity !
This post seems super boring...apologies.

Will you ever be pleased with your own skin? You can't hide your insecurities with a pretty face.

Downloading loads of new tunes, making new playlists...I'm not finding that many good bands anymore, only a couple. Kind of disappointing because I need new music. My lyrical soul is thirsty for some.

Fucking hell. A moth just flew into my room. I won't be able to sleep for ages now. Actually, thats a lie. I probably will, cause I'm super tired. I probably should be asleep right now, I've been tired all weekend - no sleep ins due to early shopping Saturday and my brothers friends waking up hungover at 8:00 this morning. That bacon + egg sandwich was worth it though, mmmm :)

In the next two weeks I must see Robin Hood and Nightmare on Elm Street. Desiring badly to see both. Butttt, right now I feel like..going out. Party. Adventure. Something fun.
Drinking til you cant feel feelings anymore
sounds good :)

head over heels

2010-05-05T21:41:00.005+10:00

You keep your distance with a system of touch, and gentle persuasion. I'm lost in admiration, could I need you this much? Oh, you're wasting my time.

Was mad craving coffee this evening. Nagged my father, so we went driving to some place where he had to fix this vending machine and picked up coffee on the way home :) Hours are adding up...slowly ! But I'm not really that tired now.
Oh well :)

Man, I swear I'm bi-polar.

i can never take this back

2010-05-02T22:36:00.003+10:00

I..hate this.
Lovely weekend and now horrible mood :)
Yay for being upset ! And don't ask why, I don't want to tell you, plus the fact that I can barely explain it to myself so there's no way within the fiery pits of the deepest depths of hell that I'd be able to explain it. It's just always there. This emptiness and pointlessness, but I'm happy with what I have. It's just myself as a person and man, I don't want to get into this. Just felt like saying something.
So hello boring blog, old..full of random boring posts blog..you're always here for me, cause you can't escape. You're stuck with me, because as stupid as it may seem, I always somehow feel better when I say..whatever it is that I say when I post, no matter how small or insignificant it may be. Cause that's what I am, well not small - clearly - rather enormous as a matter of fact..
Fuuuck it.
Tomorrows gonna be a long day. It's an every subject day, extension day and then driving lesson..
I'd like my P's right now. I'd drive. Drive. Drive. Drive. I know where I'd want to drive. I know what I want.
I just don't want to want it anymore.

2010-05-02T22:23:00.002+10:00

Blue October - Amazing

Old. And strange. But I love it, it's beautiful.
Feel free to ignore the video, if you actually watch it that is.

paranoid.

2010-05-02T11:46:00.004+10:00

People think I'm insane because I am frowning all the time.
All day long I think of things, but nothing seems to satisfy.
Think I'll lose my mind if I don't find something to pacify.
Can you help me occupy my brain?
I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find.
I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind.
Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh and I will cry.
Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal.
And so as you hear these words telling you now of my state,
I tell you to enjoy life, I wish I could but it's too late.

perv,

2010-05-02T00:10:00.004+10:00

Fine male specimen ♥
I mean..just look at the arms..
After recent stress due to this fictional vampire and his possibility for turning evil, the latest episode has eased me of this stress and made me happy :)
He has returned to his ultimate level of hotness and returned to his darling Elaina in a rather cute scene.
Love it.

:D

2010-05-01T14:52:00.002+10:00

I am in a super mood.
Yesterday was fun. School, was surprisingly not bad. Hamlet's kinda interesting. Maths is always lovely. Chemistry was prac ! and spent our free watching hilarioussss youtube videos :)
Thennn we proceeded to Wakelings to pick up my broom-broom. I love it a damn lot. Spend the afternoon fiddling with it and my brothers car, then drove it over to Courtneys - insanely different to driving my fathers massive beast of a machine, so much better :)
COURTNEY GOT HER P'S :)
And yes she is a splendid driver, myself, josh and emily survived in the car :)
Youth was...interesting. It was fun, dancing around and screaming like psychos - to the one song we knew the words to. Dairy game was disgusting to watch hahaa. Totally came last in the bike game, I'll blame it on my foot coming off the pedal and losing about 5 seconds ;) Kinda weirded me out a bit though, during the guy speaking when people we just randomly screaming out "Amen!" and "Come on, that's the way to do it!" and "Praise Jesus!"
A bit more full on than I expected...and singing and praying with their eyes closed while staring up at the ceiling..reminded me a little bit of Borat..
But, each to their own I suppose.
Crashed at Courtney's watching American Pie: The Book of Love, they've made way too many of those movies. Should've stopped at the third one.
This morning I was picked up in Billy and my parentals and I hit up the shops. New clothes :)
Feeling good.

i dont believe in imaginary bloodshed

2010-04-27T17:07:00.004+10:00

Medical and Health Sciences

That course looks interesting.
Seminar this afternoon has made me paranoid about Uni and picking courses, yet again.
So right now I am watching Role Models with my brother..hilarious film :) ..while I am freezing my arse off. I can feel Winter. Seriously disliking it. Jumper..socks...trackies..yet still not warm. I am going to go fetch a blanket.
See how boring blogging has become. Sigh. When interesting stuff occurs I shall let you know :)

Did you know that dinosaurs are not extinct? Because birds are dinosaurs..and they're everywhere.

XVII

2010-04-23T16:18:00.002+10:00

Happy Birthday to me !

Having a splendid day so far :) Tonight and tomorrow shall be lovely also.
I love you guys so much it's driving me INSANE.
♥

black dresses

2010-04-19T17:45:00.003+10:00

School, it's returned..
All exam results back now, I am pretty happy :) I just found an ATAR calculator hahaa and tried to calculate mine using my half yearly results. Like I know it's not accurate..cause it doesn't include assessments, scaling, positions or whatever lol but it's made me feel slightly better giving me a rough 90.65.
I wouldn't mind if that's what I actually got hahaa
Must go. Dinner...

goodbye

2010-04-17T20:16:00.002+10:00

Bye Taranaki.

So, what's been happening? I've reached over 60 hours of driving, I've got my fringe re-cut, we cleared out Depot house, I've gotten fatter and I have written half my english essay, which I must finish tomorrow.
I hope you have been having fun, happy joyous holidays :)
cause they're over. Well, we have one day left. Fun.
I would like my car, and my provisionals...and a decent normal body unlike this lump of fat + flesh :)
But I'm feeling content right now, with everything but fat, as always, other than that I'm good. Not wanting to go back to school, and disliking talking about Uni plans but hey, it's unavoidable I guess.

i bleed.

2010-04-14T16:34:00.002+10:00

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nobody, not even the rain

2010-04-12T12:55:00.003+10:00

I know that even with the seams stitched tightly darling, scars will remain. I say we scrape them from each other, darling, and let them wash off in the rain. And when they run into the river, oh no, let the water not complain. I swear that even with the distance slowly wearing out your name. Your hands still catch the light the right way and our hearts still beat the same.

I watched Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist this morning once I woke up. It's such a lovely movie. I don't know what's cute about Michael Cera though..he's just awkward, can't say I'm a fan. Looks like today is another day of doing nothing, bludging, sleeping, watching :)
I looked at photos from Teppanyaki. Vomit. Need a new face :)

dickhead

2010-04-10T12:10:00.004+10:00

No my brain and my bones don't want to take, this anymore

Having a boring day. The beginning of a boring week..should probably do the schoolwork that's due when we get back, but I really cbf'd :)
I might watch The Breakfast Club. How absolutely enthralling.
I wore my retainer last night for the first time in forever, and now my teeth hurt. But I dunno if it's cause of that or my sore tooth, or a mixture of both. Whatevs. Looks like no eating :)
Rah rah rah rah rah rah rah rah rah rah.
Alyssa, get a life and stop bitching to the internet, kay?

2010-04-09T19:29:00.001+10:00

Haven't felt like this in a while. I'm so not glad that you've returned.

phantom limb

2010-04-08T15:35:00.002+10:00

Well, last night was interesting to say the least. Majority of it was fun :) Except sleeping that night was an insane pain in the arse, not literally.
Not much to blog about. Losing interest in blogging again.. I'm sure it will pick up again soon.
I was tripping balls this afternoon. I was watching Two and Half Men series 6..and I fell asleep. I woke up, checked my phone and it said Friday, 9th of April. I freaked out a bit, realised it was still Thursday and that my phone was playing tricks on me and went back to sleep. That is all.
I still feel slightly nauseous. Hope this passes :) I'm going to go find something to wear this evening.

2010-04-06T22:16:00.002+10:00

Happy Birthday Courtney ♥

Hope you had a marvellous day.

blindfolded

2010-04-05T22:59:00.007+10:00

I leave my mind daily, but you'd never see me move

I hope tomorrow is fun for the birthday girl :) I hope we find something to do in the city.
I want to take a bunch of photos tomorrow. So hopefully there are also some photo ops.
But whatevs, getting out of the house and spending the day with..a few of the people I love most should be marvellous.
I want to dye my hair this colour permanently, I like it. Now I just need to find..a style? that I like I suppose. Oh, and I also want the smell of this dye to stay permanently ♥

2010-04-05T13:30:00.003+10:00

It's okay, I didn't go bald :)

2010-04-05T12:24:00.001+10:00

Okay. I'm kind of freaking out right now. So I put the dye in my hair. Running my fingers through my hair. Massive clump of hair falls out. There's hair everywhere. Not on my head. I'm going to die.

what you are

2010-04-05T11:13:00.003+10:00

Hmm, I watched the latest episode of The Vampire Diaries the other day. One of the characters discovered the reality of vampires and requested that he be turned. I know vampires aren't real and the obsession with them is rather strange, but still I wonder if I would do the same thing if I found out they were real. I can see some of the appeal of being one, but it's kind of creepy and disgusting. I wish to watch next weeks episode :)
Just my random thought of the day. Today I think I am going to..wrap Courtney's birthday present, dye my hair, work and just bludge around. We should probably organise tomorrow..just discovered Paddy's isn't open tomorrow so we must find other plans. Shall be a good day regardless :)
And I just damn near pissed myself laughing, my brother was walking out of the study, not sure what he was doing, but he was closing the door..when he was walking out...so he crashed into the door. I think he's still semi-drunk.
There was a shitfight at work last night. Everyone abused the new manager :) I hope she has to leave, she sucks..and I hope she isn't on tonight.
That's all for now I suppose, off to dye my hair.

uncut

2010-04-04T17:14:00.003+10:00

I was having a lazy, boring, fat, chocolate-filled day - so I just exercised to make myself feel less lazy. I actually ran - oh god. And now my legs hurt. But it's good :)
I was going to watch Saw VI before, but I put it in the dvd player...and it didn't work...so I watched The Road instead. It was really good. I advise that you watch it. BUT now I have tried Saw in my computer and it is working :) So I'm watching the previews before the actual movie begins and I decided to blog.
I'm in the need for a gruesome horror flick - it says Uncut Version :) wicked.
I'm kinda excited for this week. It shall be fun.
I was feeling like shit this morning, and now I feel like..really good. Perhaps I really am bi-polar.

2010-04-04T10:25:00.005+10:00

You came back and you brought floods. Wearing a necklace made of hearts that you'd dragged through the mud, and I guess I wasn't quite sure what to say to you. But then I saw mine, almost reached out to grab it, said darling, you're the only one on earth I want to have it, but now I'm not so sure that was true, after the hell you put it through. But there was no sharp pain this time, just the ghost of your presence compressing my chest like a vine, an unshakable absence like most of my insides crawled out of my mouth and went west but that's fine. We cast our hearts in plaster, we imagined our bodies were fashioned from stone, but they chipped at the brick and the mortar, we found out that we're only layers of skin hiding bones. And our bones are like chains, old and rusted in the rain, they're going to snap when the weight shifts. You moved like a fire through the forest. Your hands were as red as the skin on your lips. You'd been flirting with distance, princess, I tasted it's spit in your kiss. Oh mistress, know, today I will bury the flames of your failure. The past is a liar, the future, a whore. I'll lay your bones into the earth and you will haunt my head no more.

2010-04-03T22:08:00.002+11:00

I always get in random, strange, bad moods. And I usually blog while I'm in them, saying that I hate being in them and I will be more positive and happy blah blah blah. But it never happens. Bad moods happen, I try to avoid them but it's becoming inevitable :) I have nothing to be in a bad mood for, I just am. Or I make reasons. Stupid pathetic reasons. Just please slap me in the face, punch me in the gut or shoot me in the leg and make me realise that I am a pathetic fuckwit who should be happy with what I have, and forget about the things that I don't have, and will never have.

2010-04-02T11:36:00.004+11:00

I just heard a weird conversation faintly in one of the houses around us,

Parent (I'm guessing) : WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN OUR BEDROOM?
...silence, I think whoever it was was apologising.
Parent: YOU WILL PAY FOR THIS, YOU WILL

I'm damn sure that was what they were saying..hmm lol

It's totally holidayssss. I really don't wanna do schoolwork, so for right now I'm gonna bludge around doing nothing. Hamlet 2 and Fired Up are on the television, perhaps I shall watch them.

I wish I was allowed to go to a movie marathon on sunday evening. That would be fun :)
I wanna see She's Out Of My League, Clash of the Titans, Brothers and Remember Me.
Iron Man 2 comes out at the end of April :) Robin Hood in May, according to imdb, Nightmare on Elm Street comes out May 20th! Kellan Lutz is in it ;) Eclipse comes out in July and Tomorrow When the War Began in September. Man, I love movies.

no one wants your opinion

2010-04-01T17:07:00.004+11:00

HOLIDAYS.

Safe to say that I am amped.
But not right now..as I have to go work..and am so not in the mood to meet this new manager chick. Ugh. I get double time on Monday, yay :)
I want to do something this weekend. I want to see Clash of the Titans..but no one will go with me lol Oh well.
I'm going to watch the second half of Star Wars Episode III this evening, lovely way to begin the holidays I do reckon.
Why do I even bother to post this? Just pointless blabber..

desire.

2010-03-30T18:55:00.002+11:00

Being in a bad mood when you have a reason is...bad.. But being in a bad mood when you have no reason to be, I think, is worse.
Sigh.
I am going to go read. I haven't read a book book in a while, cept in my free today...but that was from severe boredom. Now I feel like reading.
Or maybe I'll dye my hair. I want to dye it...but I don't want it to run out cause it's gonna fade quickly. Golly gosh.
Now I'm just blabbering and boring you.

i am the highway

2010-03-30T17:32:00.003+11:00

I feel like I should be doing something, homework or study or just something. But I have nothing due and I figure that since exams just finished I shouldn't be studying :) It's a rather wonderful feeling.
I just watched last weeks and this weeks episodes of Gossip Girl. It's alright..except that every single person in the show is a couple now.
Influencing Courtney to watch The Vampire Diaries in our free's today has kind of got me in the mood to watch it, sadly there are no new episodes..maybe I'll watch some old ones :)
This must be so interesting for you to read.
Ohmyfuckinggod.
Shit.
I almost had a heart attack. I clicked the button to open iTunes, a lil thing came up saying iTunes has no library and needs one to continue. I thought all my music was gone. Pretty sure I would've spent the night crying. But I closed that..clicked it again and it opened - all my music is still there ♥
Although there is nothing superly exciting planned for these holidays, I am excited for them :) and Courtney's birthdayyy of course - need to plan something, and a present..
I think it's just cause I'm sick of school. And some people. Two terms and two days.

lie lie lie

2010-03-29T17:54:00.002+11:00

So I have 2/6 exams back now, that's 1/3 of my exams back ! Probably won't get the others back for agesss, especially bio and english hahaa. But I'm happy with how they have gone so far :) Studying heaps actually works, who knew lol
Down at canberra friday evening, I think my dad was jealous of the dinner my aunty cooked, so tonight he's trying to recreate the same meal - with improvements hahaa
Right now I am listening to the brilliant vocals of Serj Tankian.
and I must go, my fathers imitation dinner calls.

i aint your cute little sex toy

2010-03-28T15:54:00.005+11:00

Kill the lights, these children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap drinks. It feels right, all these asphyxiated, self-medicated; take the white pill, you'll feel alright

It is so insanely hot today. Just..phwoar
Jessica Kollias and I went shopping today :) Both spent...wayyy too much money - successful shopping trip. I splurged $80 on shoes that..jess just forced me to buy. but I love them :)

You might not love them, but I don't care, cause they're not yours :) They have fatherly approval too
I bought...a dress, shorts, a lovely beanie, some bras..hair dye..
I needa get my haircut before I dye it I reckon..personally. I'm thinking maybe next weekend? We shall see. Had a bit of a fat day too..KFC and a donut...badddd shit.
I was going to do my bio pracs..but we don't have bio tomorrow due to cross country :) scoreeee. should probably do that english shit though...whatevs,

congratulations

2010-03-27T22:36:00.002+11:00

hardcore :)
we had a sweet sing-a-long to the Tik Tok Parody last night and I introduced to them the art of photobombing. i love my cousins ♥
Anyway, so work was interesting. Kind of busy..for us..and bitchy but funny all in one.. It was sad though. A mentally disabled guy came in and pointed to what he wanted cause I couldn't understand him..I feel so bad for him, having to sit there and watch everyone walk and talk so easily when for him it's impossible.
On a..somewhat lighter note. I came home to find my brother chillin in the crib with his friends, wanted to watch some movie called Gag, empties lying round the house. While I was making dinner they all made their way into the garage to put on gloves and cricket helmets and started having a makeshift Fight Club in my parents empty garage space. Was..interesting..
Four days of school left for this term. Hopefully exams back? Cept english..I don't want that.
Tomorrow..I think I am going to clean my room..do those biology pracs..and be insanely lazy :)

bitter pill

2010-03-27T15:47:00.002+11:00

I really feel like going shopping. Wanna come with me? :)
Drove back from canberra this morning, I totally overtook another learner on the freeway. good feeling. Was a lovely trip also,
but now I am absolutely buggered and am going to go shower before I have to go to work...awesome!

nowhere fast.

2010-03-26T14:30:00.004+11:00

FRIGGEN DONE.

hellsss yes :)
The extension english nerds should also be nearly finished by now too which is super lovely. I just messaged patty to tell her..that the person she knows who has been talking to me on facebook sent me an email with their number and saying to text him to talk and see if i want to go out after exams. 'delete'.
I'm not as desperate as I may seem..please understand that.

This was the basis of the creative writing story we collaborately prepared for Jmac. Reltih is an egyptian penguin who has the ability to oven-morph if I remember correctly, his mother was a gypsy and his father was goat. Oh, and he's also a jellybean engineer. I forget the part about 'canonically' or whatever that word was..

For now I am going to chill, knowing that my examinations are complete :)
I'm hoping I can stay awake for the three hour drive to our nations capital this evening, if not..well you'll never hear from me again..

2010-03-25T23:21:00.001+11:00

Patricia Ashika Lal, I am going to kill you tomorrow :)

stress much?

2010-03-24T21:38:00.005+11:00

Trigonometric Identities, oh why can I never remember you? And you! Integration by substitution! If I had balls I would make you suck them because you are shit. And then there's 3D Trig who just likes to hide in the back of my study notes and pop up occasionally causing me to rip my hair out in stress and anxiety, wishing I had taken note of how to find h using Pythagoras because all the questions are the same. And circle geometry, you're so old I forget you. Induction, I understand you now so you no longer threaten me as much as you used to. I have new mathematical enemies now. Tomorrow, you best bring it.

2010-03-23T22:52:00.002+11:00

It's absolutely amazing how a sudden sensation of loneliness can be annihilated with some simple music.

five

2010-03-23T13:01:00.002+11:00

one exam downnnn :)
No more essays. It was..pretty shit, but I'm not overly fussed as as of 11:30 it was in the past. Right now I am procrastinating from seriously needed German and Chemistry study and I can't study tonight..cause..y'know, Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice are merging to make an episode that's going to annoy me so much, but if that's the most of my troubles then I suppose I'm doing well at the moment..well at least I will be if I keep thinking that. There's..a few things..people even..that are annoying me right now, I am about ready to snap in some cases.
We have so many bottles of wine in this wine rack thats next to my study desk. 38 I just counted. That is a lot of wine. One is bright red. It looks mad :) I really like studying down here. It's so isolated and away from everyone, but somehow still in the middle of everything. I can hear upstairs as well as downstairs but I'm far away in the corner :)
Okay. That's enough procrastination for now.
Ich muss studieren Deutsch und Chemie!
I am seriously going to fail Chemistry. There's just so much, and there's going to be super complex questions that only the science nerds are going to understand and I'm just going to be stuck, questioning why on earth I chose it as a subject.

navigate me

2010-03-22T16:35:00.002+11:00

So it takes me 20 minutes to write my two and a half page creative writing story. Thats good. But then my essay - which is complete and utter shit - takes six pages and one hour to write. I'm going to memorise my story, but screw remembering my essay. Not worth the effort. I shall create a whole new essay tomorrow in the exam :) Good plan? I think so. I'm remembering points and quotes stuff..but I have no thesis..and no good sentences. Just abbreviated dot points. But it's okay, cause it's not an assessment :) And I suck at English regardless. I'm happy it's first - out of the way. So I can then prepare for German and Chemistry the next day. I just got some German extended response questions so I've been doing that - LEO has given me some phrases that I may memorise. Chemistry - I'm screwed for. Biology - I'm not as screwed as I am for Chem, but still pretty screwed. Maths - hahahaa............... I've done four exams and have two..or four if I'm feeling super nerdy..more left to do. For now - I am going to put away my German vocab list and try and write my creative writing using nothing but my memory.
I hope you're having as much fun as I am with study :)
And for those that cannot detect my sarcasm, that was sarcasm.

seriously upsetting

2010-03-22T11:06:00.006+11:00

The season finale of Skins. Just like OMG. On so many levels. I was so distraught last night. I really think you should watch it. Just so you know how I feel right now..
But now I am spending my day home alone..should be studying seeing as my exams begin tomorrow...but no I've spent my morning watching Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging and bludging around my room :)
Sigh, I should probably start murdering my hand with my english essay and creative writing.
Oh and message to Alyssa's skin. Please stop looking like you've been burnt with acid and like you're exploding all over the place. Look nice. Please. You are damaging me.

April Sixth - Dear Angel
Old old old song. But it's one of my dearest loves. It's making a return into my life ♥

As I sit here alone, oh. Just thinking about everything that you said. Y'know since I'm alone, well maybe after all I was better off dead. Cause without you, my lifes gone down what do I do, when I find myself wanting to die?

effy,

2010-03-21T19:31:00.001+11:00

I have retired from study for the day and am going to spend the next 47 minutes splurging on the deliciousness that is Skins Season 4.

2010-03-19T16:53:00.002+11:00

Cheers also to Jmac for reading :)

Man, I just love Fridays. I still don't know if we're actually going out tonight or not, but whatevs..I just laid like a fat bitch on the lounge with my mother for ages watching friends and mxc :) asians are hilarious.
Exams start monday, luckilyy i dont have any til tuesday..but nevertheless i am still insanely screwed along with everyone else who says they are also :)
we shall have a joyous weekend studying. can't wait.

If you don't like animal flesh, don't look.

2010-03-17T22:16:00.005+11:00

Esshhayss,

check what we did today in bio :)
well..what Jess did really...she did some nice cutting of sheep kidney.

I am recognising that almost everyone is in a shit mood lately, myself included. Like it's just meh-mode. Exams and school and HSC is our livess :) superly sucks ass. but will be wonderful when it's over :)
Personally I am feeling good tonight. I've prepared a tutoring money stash - full of $60 so far! Reorganised and relocated my study arena. Am mentally preparing an action plan to lose weight (don't really rely on this one, but it's worth...yet another shot I suppose)
I want to be happier. People don't like my when I'm depressed and negative, and whats the point of life if theres no one to share it with.

I feel like looking up what I did on this day last year.
Man it was a depressing post - we did walking group - hahahaaa
And I quote:

I will listen to my 'emo' + 'depressing' music and write in this ever so pointless blog.

Nice to know my attitude has changed.

ALSO;
thankyou to jess + kate
I bet this is so interesting for you.

2010-03-16T22:34:00.001+11:00

Why do I even bother posting? I don't think anyone actually reads this...no one follows it and no one comments lol ohhh well.
black abyss that is the neverending boundaries of cyberspace, you will listen.

disco.

2010-03-16T15:50:00.003+11:00

Had a wonderful day of being ripped on a lot. Awesome.
I am going to rewrite my english essay and my creative writing this afternoon. Tonight I'm hoping to begin my notes for the second bio topic. Thennn Greys and Gossip Girl :)
Blogs are boring. Reflective of life?

my exit, unfair

2010-03-15T22:31:00.002+11:00

At 10:00, I said I was going to go to bed at 10:30, or when I won my next game of solitaire - whichever came first.
I won solitaire at exactly 10:30. Maybe I'm becoming a believer in fate :)

glue girls

2010-03-15T20:07:00.004+11:00

maybe if i lay low, love will fall around my door, and maybe i won't, but your cold eyes baby tell me i should be looking for love with some other girl

Just did an extension maths exam. it was awesome.
I think my Pi clock is dead already, sigh - was good while it lasted :)
and for a group that quite regularly has lacking conversations at lunchtimes, we had a rather splendid one today. it was lovely :) kind of perverted and slack to numerous people, but still lovely all the same.
I've decided we need more photos, as my blog is lacking posts with photos, beginning to look bland. No one likes a bland blog.
I'm kind of aching to dye my hair, but I never leave my house for the opportunity to buy hair dye..gaaay. im contemplating a fringe again though, to hide my acne ridden and wrinkly foreheadd. mann who knows.
All i know is that right now im going to go shower, then perhaps study a bit of...biology? yes.

I want so badly to believe, that there is truth, that love is real.

stolen from karol :)

2010-03-14T11:13:00.001+11:00

1. Had sex: $10.00
2. Smoked: $3.00
3. Got drunk: $7.00
4. Went skinny dipping: $5.00
5. Kissed someone of the opposite sex: $5.00
6. Kissed someone of the same sex: $5.00
7. Cheated on a test: $2.00
8. Fell asleep in class $0.50
9. Been expelled: $5.00
10. Been in a fist fight: $10.00
11. Given oral: $10.00
12. Got oral: $10.00
13. Prank called the cops: $3.00
14. Stole something: $2.00
15. Done drugs: $5.00
16.Dyed your hair: $0.50
17. Done something with someone older (like a few years): $3.00
18. Went out with someone OVER 18 (if your under 18: $4.00
19. Ate a whole thing of oreos: $0.50
20. Cried yourself to sleep: $1.00
21. Said you love someone but didnt mean it: $1.00
22. Been in love: $4.00
23. Got caught doing something that you shouldn’t have been doing: $1.00
24. Went streaking: $4.00
25. Got arrested: $5.00
26. Made out with someone: $2.00
27. Peed in the pool: $0.50
28. Played spin the bottle: $1.00
29. Done something you regret: $3.00

My total: $25
Considering Karols was $63, I officially suck at life hahaaa

stone lay like bones by the ocean

2010-03-13T15:59:00.003+11:00

Just taking a break from studying. I've been somewhat breaking for the past two hours as I watched The Shawshank Redemption, which I am now doing as my second related text. But now I have come to actually open the essay that I started but never got to finish, anddd Microsoft Word isn't working. When I got this puter the people installed office for me but they never put in the actual product activation key code thing n everytime i open it, it pops up that i need to enter it but i don't have it so i just close it and it works fine, but not anymoree. i close it now and i can't type anything or click on anything on the tabs. i can open my essay, but i cant do anything to it. which is awesome. so ive messaged my parents asking where the product key thing is, and dad replied saying he has no idea but mums asleep and she will ring when she wakes up.
So that's about it. I can't do any english for the time being :)
I saw my brother for about a total of twenty minutes last night and when I woke up today he was gone, not sure when he's coming home lol i've been living alone for the past day. ooh a day. feeling kind of lonely though. i've almost finished one topic of notes for bio, and am about to go continue with chemistry. maybe then bio homework...or maths catch up?
Guys, I've been eating too much fatty food. it's horrible. and my reflection is hating me for it.
I was emotionally exasperated last night....but i reached a point and stopped. so its okay :)

2010-03-12T23:25:00.002+11:00

Skins. Season 4. JJ's episode. Cook naked in the shower. He is fucking fineeee :)

doesn't bother me at all

2010-03-11T22:38:00.002+11:00

After much searching of Limewire and various other music sites I have obtained songs One to Twelve of the three La Dispute EPs :)
made my night.

im mad, really mad

2010-03-10T22:12:00.003+11:00

The US Skins cast. Their lame attempt at the show is going to be bad :)
Cannot possibly beat the awesomeness of the past...three and a half seasons.
I think the guy on the right is going to be Sid, the ranga chick will be Michelle, guy in leather jacket will be Tony, guy next to him - Chris, chick next to him - Cassie, guy in the front - Anwar. And then the asian and weird chick in the back row with short hair...one of them is Jal - short haired one maybe? and then they totally just excluded Maxxie.
Yeah...that's all really.
Studied some more Biology this evening, don't you just loveee year twelve...........
I felt horrible this afternoon. Tutoring my year nine girl, they were doing indices, which is good cause I like them and they're easy, but now they're doing stuff with conversions. And I had no idea what to do. I'm shitttt as at them. Her main problem was with percentages though...so that was okay I guess. She has a test on friday. I think I'm failing as a tutor :/
10:30. Bedtime. Going to bed earlier and earlier, I think it's somewhat good for my health :)

to withstand the force of storms

2010-03-09T16:12:00.005+11:00

whisper secrets, speak in a hushed voice, the first thing that you learn is that you never let them hear you, in a soundproof room, in a windowless world, keep your voice down or dull your words. Then, put on your bedroom face for him, all pursed lips and half-closed eyes with pink-stained skin screaming for sleeping hands on downed dresses, screaming, for dead legs come alive, for dead legs come alive, for dead legs come alive. Oh dear god, there is no excuse for me

I find blogggging exhaustingly boringgg lately. Nothing to share. Nothing I want people to read and analyse anyway.
I think I am going to go study. I began in my free this morning, there's a heckkkofalot to know and it's only half yearlyysss :/
screw our lives man.
my brother is setting up a gym in our garage. He's cleared it out, and laid the mats down. and the only equipment he has is a situp machine thing, that thing that rolls? but he's going to buy like a weights set and shit. My dad says it will make me lose weight. I don't really understand how weights makes you lose weight, I don't wanna be buff.....but i suppose anythings better than this.

five

2010-03-08T22:03:00.001+11:00

There is a loneliness in this world
So great that you can see it in the slow movement of the hands of a clock
People so tired, mutilated, either by love or no love.
People just are not good to each other.
We are afraid.
Our educational system tells us that we can all be big winners
But it hasn't told us about the gutters or the suicides.
Or the terror of one person aching in one place
Alone, untouched, and unspoken to.

People are not good to each other.
People are not good to each other.
I suppose they never will be.
I don't ask them to be.
But sometimes I think about it.
There must be a way.
Surely, there must be a way

There is no chance at all.
We are all trapped by fate.
Nobody ever finds the one.

2010-03-07T22:56:00.001+11:00

Just had a Laugh My Ass Off moment

Skins
Cook - "She looks like the fucking chick off the ring"

it was just a phase

2010-03-07T10:59:00.002+11:00

Argh, there is so much stuff to do. Chemistry Pracs. Biology Pracs. German Homework. German test to study for. English Assessment. Maths Assessment. German Assessment. and thenn eventually once I get through that studying needs to be done for the exams..that are in three weeks. Awesomeeeeee :)
But I am feeling good today. My daddy bought me some medicine sooo I'm not that sick anymore, hooorayyy!
That is all really.....I'm going to go do one last search for my Chem Prac book cause I cannot find it anywhereeeeee! then begin work.
Hope you have been having a splendid weekend ♥

2010-03-04T16:24:00.000+11:00

stupid sluts

2010-03-03T20:04:00.002+11:00

Above people, I dislike you for creating your film and your book :)

Kind of drifted off the blogging sphere for a while. Not much to blog about. Life is uneventful and full of schoolwork which is always absolutely raging.
Three assessments next week. One I really need to do. One I really need to study for. and I don't really think I can do much for German. Cept revise vocab, even though we get a dictionary :)
Parent teacher interviews this evening, think they went fine.....rather pointless I must say.

Seven months left !

abracadavers

2010-02-27T13:23:00.004+11:00

right now I am waiting for Blade Runner to decrypt and be saved onto my hard drive :)
for my assessment I think I am going to make a video..using blade runner footage...quotes...and any frankenstein footage I am able to uncover on the world wide web. im not going to do it this weekend..seeing as we haven't even finished the movie buttt i thought i may get started, just so i don't feel super lazy and can stress less :)
when this finishes I am going to do some of my maths assessment. anddd then maybe ill start studying? or it might just then be time for work. awesome.
this weekend is going to productive.
I've already cleaned my room and organised all my school folders. it's a bit bizarre what has come over me.

I am craving a sandwich.
& I want some more followers.
Follow me please :)

insane

2010-02-26T19:31:00.003+11:00

oh yeah,
bthew!
Paramore was awesomeeeeeeeeee and sweatttyyy :)
loved it.

That is all I have to say really.
This weekend I am going to do schoolwork. And study. I need to do better.
Just seven more months guys, we can do this.

lets go insane again. bring back the pain again.

I feel like movies tonight. Team America perhaps? I'm in need of a laugh.

2010-02-25T22:58:00.000+11:00

I need to stress less.

brighter

2010-02-23T23:13:00.003+11:00

We're totally seeing them tomorrow night. That's Paramore for the ill-informed.
I kind of wouldn't mind having her hair :)

if love was enough

2010-02-22T17:38:00.003+11:00

Just to be a copy cat and for the sake of something to post, I am going to redo the same survey that Jmac did.
She completed it one year ago today. And so did I :)

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. "using its nose to devour something whole, something that"
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. the body butter thats on my bedside table
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? umm a bit of zack and miri make a porno
4. Without looking, guess what time it is? 5.30?
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 5.43
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? graham colton singing some tunes, my brother go through his drawers and the air con
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? umm well I got out of the car when i got home from school
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? my old answer was bebo hahaaa, um before this i as looking at adding archives to my side bar >>> and completed said task.
9. What are you wearing? shorts and a shirt...
10. Did you dream last night? probably
11. When did you last laugh? a few minutes ago about the dick still being on my brothers back hahaaa
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? um paint, my corkboard, my photoboard, a wall hanging, a headless guy with an umbrella. the usual.
13. Seen anything weird lately? most probably.
14. What do you think of this quiz? meh
15. What is the last film you saw? shutter island. was mad :)
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? a car.
17. Tell me something about you that hardly anyone else knows? id rather not.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of politics, what would you do? Make everyone feel good about themselves i still want the same thing as last year.
19. Can you sing? yeah im hell talented.
20. George Bush? haha. bush.
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Abigail. or something awesome
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Nathan
23. Would you ever consider living abroad? i dunno, depends where and what for
24. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates? hahaaaa shit.
25. What's a word that rhymes with luck? fuck.
26. Who's the 2nd person on your missed call list? work.
27. What shirt are you wearing right now? umm a grey one
28. What do you think about the person who last took this survey? jess m. when shes not singing about narwhals, i would say shes pretty rad :)
29. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? the biggest or most comfortable looking one. or the bounciest.
30. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say? dont really want to write it on here
31. When is the last time you took a shower? yesterday. man i need to shower.
32. Hats or beanies? oh man. tough. tough....ima say hats.
33. If the last person you spoke to on the phone was getting shot at what would you do? that was my dad. pretty sure i would attack the shooter or jump in front of the bullet.
34. Do you do the games in the ads on myspace? um, no
35. List four things you want to do in your lifetime: be happy. fall in love. find a job i love. and change someones life.
36. Do you eat raw hot dogs? um wtf im human.
37. Do you like sushi? still i have never tried it. dont plan on it anytime soon.
38. How much salad dressing do you put on your salad? none
39. What is the last thing you pulled out of your pocket and gave to someone? i..cannot remember.

yeah, bet that was super exciting for you to read.

2010-02-20T23:15:00.001+11:00

I want you to try and help yourself.
Please.

the only exception

2010-02-18T18:56:00.002+11:00

Totally hit up the aquarium with mathematics peeps today :) Understood...most of the maths eventually, came home and my brother asked me if we had to do the stupid question to do with the crocodile tank and I was just like !!! that's the one everyone was shitting over hahaaa :)
I don't really wish to elaborate and give a recount of the days events, so I won't bother. But it was fun, except seeing Patty and Mikey kinda scarred my retinas ;)

such small hands

2010-02-17T17:25:00.004+11:00

i thought i heard the door open, oh. no. thought i heard the door open but i only heard it close. i thought i heard a plane, crashing. but now i think it was your passion, snapping. i think you saw me confronting my fear, it went up with the bottle and went down with the beer.

I just tutored for my first time :)
It was really good. I like the girl, her name is Taylor and she is in year 9. She talks and tells me what she doesn't understand and what she wants to work on whichhh kinda helps me a bunch. I hope I explain things for her though..it seemed like she was getting it :) guess we'll seeee. She has Mr Martin as a teacher at Magdalene. Poor thing.
I haven't journalised or blogged in a while, feeling kinda of neglective to my whiny depressing soul. It's probably not healthy that I feel obliged to hahaa

Aquarium tomorrowwww...gonna get our maths on bitches ;)

for a pessimist, im pretty optimistic

2010-02-14T21:50:00.003+11:00

My Sunday......well today I went driving, watched Kill Bill Vol. 2, super good movies :) uhh did some homework..my aunty came down to visit shes staying for the next few nights. ah, went to the movies tonight, WOLFMAN. was really gory and bloody, no real storyline but meh, i liked it :) i swear i was sitting next to two lesbians though..i thought they were just friends buttt then they kinda had their legs on each other and leaning on each other and they may have been kissing. well..at least theyre happy :)
Not really looking forward to this week. I hope the aquarium is fun though..
I'm listening to Paramore right now, trying to get pumped for the concerttt !

♥

2010-02-14T12:27:00.002+11:00

someitmes i wonder why im still waiting, sometimes im shaking, that's how you make me. sometimes i question why im still here, someimtes i think im going crazy. can you help me out next time? and now you wish that you meant something, and now you wish that you meant something to somebody else. and now you wish that you met someone, and now you wish that you meant something to somebody else.

turn it off

2010-02-13T14:34:00.003+11:00

So I just left my room for the first time in a few hours cause I was cleaning and what not, to find that I was the only one awake.......at 2:30pm on a Saturday my whole family is asleep. And you wonder why I get bored with my life.
Was supposed to be going driving today with my dad too...yeah that's going to happen.
My dad tells me this morning he was going to buy me valentines day chocolates, but there was a too big a line at the square and he didn't think I would want chocolate anyway. It's true, I don't need any more chocolate..will just make me fatter, which doesn't really matter cause my dads the only one whose ever bought me valentines day stuff lol
I think for now I shall do my Chemistry and Biology homework :) perhaps if I finish that I might attempt more of that English essay thats long overdue...perhaps.
I really needa print out some new photos for my photo board. Remind me to do that next time I'm up the square.
Mayybee I'll go exercise :) after my cheese and OJ digests perhaps I will. perhaps perhaps perhaps.
My journals now got some photos, some whinging and some failed artistic skills in it hahaaa. see how long it lasts though.
Whatevs..
Just felt like blogging.
I always feel like blogging when theres nothing to blog about..

Currently listening to Muse's rendition of Feeling Good. I loveeeeee it.

silence

2010-02-12T23:24:00.004+11:00

Valentine's Day was kind of cute, kind of lame, kind of depressing and kind of happy.
I liked it.
I'm thinking of throwing a "I Hate Valentine's Day Party" when I'm older and alone :)

andria

2010-02-11T15:52:00.004+11:00

I held your name inside my heart, but it got buried in my fear. It tore the wiring of my brain; I did my best to keep it clear. So, dear, no matter how we part, I hold you sweetly in my head. And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead. If I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend. And I will lay a bed before you; keep you safe until the end.

well i am in a bad mood...for undisclosed reasons. not bad angry just..depressed. awesome. so you know what that calls for? some depressing music :) love it.
have to leave for work..in about forty minutes. should be a lovely four hours..
It's weird how a mood can change so much in 24 hours. I think it's called bi-polar..hahaa.
yeah...im sorry.

control freak,

2010-02-10T21:59:00.003+11:00

♥

critical acclaim

2010-02-10T16:21:00.005+11:00

Self-righteousness is wearing thin. Lies inside your head your best friend. Heart bleeds but not for fellow man. Broken glass, your fake reflection.

I don't have any photos to put in this post right now but I shall post some when I get some :)
Today was our last ever Swimming Carnival. Yay :)
Pretty much spent the whole day chillin..cheering of course and pretty much letting our Johnson spirit free ! Worth it, considering we were winning by about 100 points when they last told us. Still don't know who won yet..hope it's us guys - we were by far the loudest most psyched house hahaa. But nahh twas a fun day :)
I jumped in the pool when i got home. My new cozzie is..too big. awesome. So now I have cozzies that are too big and others that are too small. Lovely hahaa. But I swum some laps, then had a shower and once all my red was gone realised that my nose is burnt, I have a shoe tan and the small bit of my chest that was showing is burnt, with a white H in the middle where Kate wrote JOHNSON. So ima have that imprinted on me for the next week or so haaha !
But yeah :)
My good mood is about to be smothered by this Portfolio that I have kinda been putting off. So thinking about the future and my lack of participation in activites is going to be fun to write about.
I might start my new journal tonight. I'm going to stick to it. Pimp it out. And no one will read it :)

the way that you are,

2010-02-08T22:05:00.002+11:00

she doesn't have much to say about yesterday, or what happened to her when she was eight. so she drinks a lot and it makes her feel okay for the moment. but it's gone when she awakes, and i hope you know that someone out there loves you, so don't give yourself away.

blue monday,

2010-02-08T19:21:00.002+11:00

So as you may have noticed I have a new blog layout :)
Should keep me satisfied for a while. But I do need a new photo. We need lots of photos this year guys. PHOTOS PHOTOS PHOTOS.

To be awfully lame and copy-catish I thought it would be interesting to make a formspring.
http://www.formspring.me/lyssakate
so ask me questions :)
I will answer. unless it's like super gay of course.

Tomorrow I forsee is going to be super lame. But Wednesday should be fun as :)
JOHNSON FTW.

well thought out twinkles,

2010-02-07T18:29:00.003+11:00

Well today I purchased a few red items that shall assist in my house pride this Wednesday - our last swimming carnival! I have no photos on me right now that I can share of our previous Johnson pride but there will sureeely be more soon :)
So right I'm chillin, listening to Silversun Pickups after my first dinner in four days (Y) and I am about to start my Biology prac work...hopefully I can get it done quickly so I can watch Labyrinth. I gave in and bought it even though it was probably a waste of $25. I just have to see it again.

Only three days of school this week, ♥

talent,

2010-02-06T09:35:00.004+11:00

So my friend Josh is lucky enough to have the powers of art bestowed on him. So much so that he got one of his tattoo designs published in Postmodern Ink. Nicely done dude :)

Josh, you're also lucky enough that your photo has made my 400th post. How exciting.

We saw Law Abiding Citizen last night, and I must say I am a fan. One super gruesome bit was lovely, and the other surprising bit was hilarious :)
About to head off to the square today before work this evening. I am on a mission for red things and The Labyrinth - cheap.

365 days

2010-02-01T21:35:00.003+11:00

Congratulations on turning one year old blog,

you're giving me goosebumps.

2010-02-01T20:50:00.005+11:00

I must say that my counters have suprised me. Dunno if they are rigged or not but oh well :) Keep wasting your time by reading this if you will hahaa.
So seeing as I did almost all my english holiday homework except the essay - well I did write the introduction..I started..just never finished - I tried to finish it this evening, but so far it's pretty much involved me sitting here for an hour listening to songs my brother is playing and laughing as he tries to sing and whining to people about how much I hate english. Sorry to those I whined to.
So I kinda just discovered that Katherine Elaine Campbell Bullen is a bit of a stalker of this blog.

See how retarded she is..I think she's the reason for every hit.

I felt I just had to add a picture. I haven't posted pictures in a while. There hasn't been pictures taken or any particularly good photo ops either. Sigh.

Right now I am listening to Chiodos :) Safe to say they are reflective of my mood.
Today was a day of thought. Thought about people. Thought about..events. I even thought in Christian Studies..not about becoming a Christian, it's safe to say that my decision in that area is final..but about life in general. Oh yes so deep and lovely I know, ugh. English made me think about how good it is going to feel to never have another English lesson again. and Maths made me think about how much Maths there is to know for one three hour exam and another shorter, much harder one, how much I have to remember, understand and comprehend, and how I'm going to have a mental breakdown in the coming months as I try to figure everything out. Sigh, negativity negativity.

I just asked Kate what I should blog about and she suggested something that frustrates me. So I am going to have just a small whinge about how much I fucking despise commentators. You get the rare interesting one who actually talks about things necessary to the game you are watching or just shoots off facts people are interested in. But then you get the absolutely terrible ones..I remember I was watching the cricket one day. They started focusing on the moon. And the commentator was like..look at that. Hard to think we actually walked on there. Cameraman kept zooming in on the bloody moon. Commentator kept talking about the fucking moon. We tuned in to watch the cricket, not to hear about the fucking moon. Oh and one time. They started focusing on the grandstands. "Lots of people here today." Yes. We can see that. Then they focus on a clock. And tell us the time. Awesome.

Okay so now Lior has just come on. Completely different mood setter than Chiodos. I'm not feeling mellow and calm tonight. I would like to. I wish I was more mellow.

Guys. I have to catch the bus home tomorrow. And on Wednesday. As far as I know anyway :) Oh! I checked out my Dads scar this evening. It's huge. And looks insanely painful. And I dunno but just..staples in human flesh doesn't really seem right.
I'm in a super blog mode. But I have nothing really to post about.

I want the first mannequins hair, body and clothes. Or the last ones. At least I think they are mannequins.. I am going to grow my hair super long. Unsure of what I am going to do with my fringe. Leave it? Side fringe it? Grow it out? Decisions are too difficult. My plan of not eating much is going well for me. And not much in my books is probably just eating a normal amount. I get hungry buttt it's just my stomach eating itself and becoming smaller so I don't need to eat as much, hence my arse, thighs, gut and arms should all eventually eat themselves too giving me a body that actually looks decent in clothes instead of a lardass bursting out of any material she uses to hide her numerous rolls and imperfections. If only there were clothes that hid the face. And diets to make your face look better.
And I just wrote a whole paragraph about myself. shut the fuck up you selfcentered whore.

I asked if I could drive home today..and my mum said no because she didn't want me pulling out on Menangle road cause cars were coming doing 100km/h. I had to laugh. I am so never going to get my Ps..

And I think I've bored you to death enough for one evening.
I hope you had a lovely Monday and that your Tuesday is just as splendid if not more.... and if you wasted your time to read this,
I love you :)

Michael.

2010-01-30T10:54:00.002+11:00

Hi Blog. Kinda forgot you existed there for a little bit. Since I last posted..we have begun school. 'Awesome' - I can read your mind. So yeah it was shit, but gladly this is our last year. Then we kinda have to think of something to do with our lives.
I've been adding all the artwork to my 4100 songs on my iTunes. It's taking forever. I'm only up to C hahaa. But I WILL finish it. Because they look wicked.
I woke up to an empty house again this morning. A note was left explaining where everyone was of course lol Dads first day out of the house. How exciting :) He could walk without his crutches last night, but had to use them to come up the stairs cause he was sick of sleeping downstairs. Mission accomplished, no falling :) He's going to get the staples removed on Wednesday and the doctor shall tell him how its going and where to go from now. So it's pretty much all good :)
I am going to do schoolwork today. And then unfortunately I must work tonight. BUT! I'm getting money. I got my bank statement yesterday saying I had $150 on the 25th and I got paid another $50 on the 28th and this Thursday I'll get $60 and same with next Thursday. This is exciting for me guys. I'll be at like over $300. Richh eh?

I am covered in skin. No one gets to come in. Pull me out from inside. I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding. I am colourblind. Coffee black and egg white. Pull me out from inside. I am ready. I am ready. I am ready, I am fine. I am fine. I am fine.

That guy at the seminar yesterday said you have a 30% higher chance of accomplishing your goals if you tell people about them. I haven't found that.. Then again I can't say I've had many goals. I have...unrealistic, uncanny goals. Well actually. I do have one goal that was discussed with Caitlin and Kate yesterday. Our individual goals, may take time...and skill perhaps but they will be done ;)

early ausss day..

2010-01-25T20:04:00.002+11:00

So last night was..interesting. Was funn though :) I have numerous cuts and bruises and random injuries..I remember I got the one on my wrist from jumping down from the roof of the bus. The rest I have no idea how they made their way onto my body. Was kind of coupley the way everyone eventually split off..and then the group of non-couples hahaa
Some people were seriously screwed. Othersss, not so much. I think I'm like immune to vomit now. It's just like..meh..someones vomiting......unless it's like insanely bad then I suppose its good for them lol
Josh's mum drove us homeee and the rebel was doing 80 in a 60 zone so naturally we got pulled over by the cops. Poor Mrs Tuck...but it was funny. Josh sucking up to the cop - That's exactly what I told her officer! hahaa, was a seriously lol moment. Hit up maccasss after our morning cravings - Camden maccas is extreeemeeeeeelyyyyyy slowwwww.
So I came home, showered, crashed on the lounge watching One Tree Hill. Woke up from there and moved into the loungeroom, fell asleep on the black chair for a while while Tool Academy was on - I missed it! Damn. Woke up from there cause my Dad wanted to sit down and moved onto the double mattressed fold-out bed we got going - most comfortable thing in the world. Fell asleep there and woke up what felt like hourssss later and realised it was only about 6.30 and we were yet to have dinner - everyone was waiting for me to wake up loll Was a very very good nap :)
Aaanddd now I'm watching some random cooking show with my father on the makeshift bed with my laptop that is about to run out of battery. A show about 2012 is about to come on and I'm going to eat one of the jam donuts we got chillin in our cake container. That and the maccasss gonna go straight to ma arse yo.
Aussie Day tomorrow. Not doing anything..or going anywhere...may involve the Friends marathon that's on..possibly some schoolwork. And then Wednesday....school. Shit. I hope my dress still fits me...I dunno what I'm gonna do if it doesn't lmao.

2010-01-24T14:23:00.003+11:00

- life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it.

puke.

2010-01-24T09:59:00.002+11:00

I just watched The Vampire Diaries episode number eleven. It's been out for three days, I can't believe I forgot about watching it. mannn, soooo good. Such a scandalous episode as well.
So right now I'm lying on my bed, kind of cold actually, and I should be doing some Frankenstein work or my essay but..y'know. My brothers about to leave for cricket I think and my Mum left about an hour or two ago to pick up Dad from the hospital. It's so bizarre, it's been four days since the operation and already he only needs like one crutch to walk. Medicine is amazing.
Kate's partyyy this evening. Hoping it's fun ay? And not too chilly down in ol' Silverdalee. We is gonna get sillyyy bitches.

my brain is hanging upsidedown.

2010-01-22T14:57:00.003+11:00

Beach yesterday was funnn as :)
Cept..we kinda got stranded.. Well I suppose in one way it was kind of our fault, cause we were at the wrong place, but THAT wasn't our fault. The bus driver dropped us off at the wrong place on the way down so we had no idea where we supposed to meet for the pick up bus. We ran into another group of Campbelltowners who also had no idea, so we rang busways with them and asked where to meet. Stupid bitch had no idea. So we had to wait two and a half hours sitting in this park with about 10 randoms we met..I had to tell work I couldn't work...dammmn. But eventually we got home :) Safe to say we all got sunburnt. My back is in patches thanks to Courtney's good sunscreening, but she says hers is too due to my good sunscreening so we're even hahaa. The back of ONE of my legs is super burnt and hurts to bend..but I feel bad for Courtenay's allergicness and Jmacs legs were already bright red on the actual beach so I can't imagine how they are today. Ouch.
I finished my creative writing story this morning..it's pretty shit......It's just this chick thinking throughout the whole thing. with bad analogies. and a lame-ass not even a twist at the end. buttt it's still done. So I all have left to do now is my essay and the chapter summaries. Essay...yeah I'll do that later. I may attempt more of Franky this arvo.
and nowww I just finished watching Reservoir Dogs. Was super good. I advise that if you are absolutely immune to violence and blood that you watch it.

Dad rang about 10 minutes ago too. He's coming home on Sunday :) He's on crutches and is getting his 19 staples removed Wednesday weekkk. We're going up to visit him this evening. Must be mighty boring sitting there all day..doing nothing really.

Listening to The Ramones right now (Y)

give it away now,

2010-01-20T13:07:00.003+11:00

Dad's operation went fine :) We're going up to visit tomorrow..should be interesting consider both him and myself are completely freaked out by hospitals.
That's about all I have to say.
I'm going to attempt to do some chapter analysis's of Frankenstein now..lovely.

alternative?

2010-01-17T10:57:00.004+11:00

Two nights in a row I have had dreams! What is goingggg on?
Last night I dreamed..I suppose an alternative ending to the end of Dawson's Creek. Wtf. I know. It would be an ending I would not be happy with so I don't know where it came from hahaa
Anyways, I was Joey. aaand, me, Audrey and Jen all came back to someone's family's house..I think it was Pacey's..and Dawson's family was staying there too. So the three of us had dinner with them that night and I, as Joey, started to feel some of the built up sexual tension between myself and Dawson, as usual. Oh, and the house they were all in was my house. the house I actually live in. So we finally left and while me Jen and Audrey were walking up my street because we parked at the top of the street for some reason..Audrey started yelling about how I should just go back to Dawson cause it was obvious I wanted him more than I wanted them. We kinda had an argument and she ended up leaving me the keys to her car and told me to drive back whenever, I was living with her..no idea why. Anddd she got a lift home with Jen. So I walked back down the street and the next bit is kinda blank, I remember going to the house next to mine and something happened there...Then I remember going back to Pacey's house, my house, where everyone was staying. I slept on their lounge and the next morning everyone was at the table having a massive breakfast..and Dawson came down the stairs and saw I was still there and was like :o then :)
We ate breakfast. Then Dawson and I went on a walk, somehow made it to a sort of lake thing where we conversed about how deep our relationship was and how we couldn't hide from it. vomit. Audrey came back for her car that day so I gave her the keys and said goodbye. I stayed with Dawson and didn't even contemplate going for Pacey. The end.
I'm so happy I'm not a writer for tv shows such as this, I would screw it up majorly :)

I only have three things left on my to-do list as I finished maths yesterday. whoo.

essay
creative writing
frankenstein - chapter analysis

Should be loads of fun.
Work last night was fun. I walked in and straight away Kendra was like, go out the back and look whos back. So I did..and it was mouldyy :) He's one of our old drivers. He's old. Dyes his hair blonde. Tells stories no one gives a shit about. Doesn't stop talking. Calls himself oldy mouldy goldyyy! and smellsss realllyyy bad. Because of that Kayla and Adam decided to attack him with perfume from behind, was hilariousss. But it didn't help lol
My weird feeling I spoke of yesterday is gone today, so I'm no longer freaking that something bad is going to happen.
For now, my mother is going out to lunch and she has asked me to do her hair :)
hope you have a splendid day, xx

my friends,

2010-01-16T14:11:00.003+11:00

Chillin on my bed and my window is open..I hear a car horn and someone yell "SHUT THE FUCK UP IDIOT"
Now I can hear angry voices and car door slamming..

Man I'm so bored. I think I am going to finish some Maths and then possibly try and finish my creative writing story.

I've had a really weird feeling all day. I had two dreams last night, I remember I had them both but I only remember what one was about. Kinda makes me laugh. But it's that feeling..I dunno how to explain it. I only remember it being there when I was really scared or when something bad had happened or was going to happen. Not times I particularly want to relive lol Aaaand considering I'm not scared about anything right now I can't shake the feeling that something bad is going to happen. Just my inner psychic coming out to haunt me on this glorious Saturday.
So just be careful when living for a while, okay? I don't think I could handle it if anything happened to you.

I heard a little girl and what she said was something beautiful. To give your love no matter what, is what she said. I love all of you.

i will be strong.

2010-01-15T16:22:00.003+11:00

These don't really feel like holidays..feels kinda like one reallyy long massive boring weekend..there's the occasional event.......and yes I am incapable of entertaining myself....
I've been sitting on my floor for about an hour and a half..listening to a bunch of music. It's been so much fun. Procrastination from schoolwork, which I really should be doing...
The appeal of blogging has ceased to exist.
I'll post when it comes back.